i don't have coherent words today. only bits and pieces to express this misery.

endless rain and grey.
regorafenib.

signs of the apocalypse, part one:
1. regurgitation
2. men weeping
3. the inhumanity of people in power


but thankfully, also the opposite of misery.

10:30 pm. [paraphrased in part]
elena: "Mommy! I need to tell you something."
me: "What is it honey?"
elena: "There are scary people and nice people. I think the people around us are nice people."
me: "Yes, honey. That's good."
elena: "And the people on Sesame Street are nice people, too."
me: "Yes they are. Now go to sleep."